The tears come often,
My cheeks have softened.
A happy girl is just the act I play,
The real me is full of dismey.
My days grow longer,
While I grow weaker.
I wonder when I'll stumble,
I wonder when I'll finally crumble.
My heart has been broken,
Taken as a token.
When will I trust?
When will I bust?
When will this nightmare end?
When will my broken heart and soul be able to mend?
This I know,
It's all been a show,
To cover up my sadness,
To hide all the madness,
That goes on in my life.
So now you know,
And it's the end of the show.
So goodbye and goodnight,
I'm done with the fight.
I died for love some time ago, Now its time for you go
It was great while it was, but it isn't anymore
You sent me flying above all my fears, too bad it would only end with me in tears,
I thought you were mine, You used to make me shine.
I saw you with her you just acted like you didn't see.
She didn't seem as clueless, clueless as me.
I know now, that you weren't true,
It was just a simple game to you.
I was true I loved you,
Now it's too late, You left me to a horrible fate.
It was a game, a game that you lost,
It's over now, good luck at finding someone like me,
Someone that would have actually loved you,
Someone that could ac
This Love You Wouldn't Know by ebony-oblivion, literature
Literature
This Love You Wouldn't Know
Mommy, Daddy, look at me.
Why can't you see?
I love him, he loves me.
I'd die before I'll let him go.
This love you wouldn't know.
Stupid brother is making me mad,
I'll punch him in the face, then I'll feel glad.
He makes me feel all the things, that feel you don't,
Probably forever won't.
You can't take me from him,
First my lights will dim.
I wish he and I could just fly away,
Beyond this day, come that may.
We'll be together forever and ever.
Take me back? You'll never.
Together we'll be, on this endless sea.
Finally we'll be able to be free.
I hate the hurt I'm feeling all the time
I can't stand not being able to get you off my mind
You've hurt me far too much and come back for a second punch
Why do i turn back to you?
After all the pain you've put me through.
Why can't I just say no?
Why can't you just fuckin go?
I hate you
I hate how you make me want you
I hate me for letting you in
Once again
Will this ever end?
I'm drowning in love/hate emotions
I can't get you out
Just want you out
I hate you, I don't want you, I just love you
I sit here, trying not to think
Just trying to clear my head
I'm so lost so confused,
When do I wait, how will i choose?
Why do i take my anger out on me?
After all it wasn't me who broke my heart
Or was it?
Why don't i know the answers?
Why can't they be carved on my body?
Like everything else?
Why is my mind so clustered?
Can't i just shake away the thoughts?
Go to sleep, wake up with everything ok?
If i run away all the pains will chase me
So what's the use?
Can't i surrender?
Put up my white flag?
Won't someone rescue me? Can they even see?
I'm Crying and Dying I wish i could stop Breathing.
Just take me away. Lead me
Current Residence: on the comfy couch Favourite genre of music: pretty much anything but country Favourite style of art: emotive portraits, conceptual photography, & photomanipulation Skin of choice: mine... Favourite cartoon character: Grim from Grim adventures of billy and mandy Personal Quote: "Let them speculate in blind ignorance"
Favourite Movies
... too many to list.
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
from autumn to ashes, marilyn manson, atreyu, adema, mcr, the used, Kittie and many many more
Favourite Games
call of duty 3 :)
Other Interests
photography, dancing, and just about any other form of art
since ive been on here. since ive even done anything i consider art... other than some doodles here and there... i guess you could say i have artists block, or just too much other stuff and stress going on. but to anyone who reads or looks at my page, thanks its very appreciated! i miss art, and i hope i get back in action soon. peace and love to all!
well im officially accepted to the art institute international of minneapolis... pretty stoked... still single. blah. but whatever i gave up on that. too much energy. but yea. thats bout all thats up.
hes back. hes getting divorced. he doesnt want me back. gr. but im to the point where i just dont care. im tired of him making me feel... anything in general. but yea.
i keep managing to get in car wrecks... its kinda my thing lately... great hobby huh? yea. no.
um. i almost died a couple weekends ago... interesting story. lots of drugs and dumb decisions. uh. yea.
hmmm im really bored. quit my job... getting my old job back. yippie for tips.
um school sucks. guys suck. my car sucks. whatever.
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I'm sending you my love and I hope that I won't disappoint you.